Everything is fine.

Phew. We made it. Married, honeymooned, back in the USS...A. I got sick, not from drinking the water, but believe it or not, from eating bad italian food in Mexico.

I came back to two needy cats, a tiny, hot apartment crammed with wedding gifts that we need to use, but don't have room for and over 300 unread emails at work. I'll be back when I've dug myself out.

Only three more days.

Wedding day countdown: T minus three days.

I can't wait for:
-Being married to Leon.
-The food.
-The honeymoon in Mexico. MEXICO!!!

What I'm hoping won't happen:
-Rain.
-Leon's poor voice still being gone.
-People that weren't invited/didn't RSVP actually show up.
-Somebody dies.
-Somebody eats all the food.
-Somebody gets too drunk.

Wish us luck.

Please.

Please don't make me talk about how stressed out I am, I'll just start crying and make mascary eyes.


So, this is what I'm pretending to be really excited about instead of stressing out on the wedding.

1. Live chat with America's Next Top Model winner, Yoanna House at 1:30 PM! I have three questions for her.

2. My bachelorette party on April 9.

3. Getting our marriage liscense today at 4:20.

What? Okay, I'll tell you what my most stressful thing is about this freaking wedding: money. I have spent every last drop of every paycheck on wedding stuff for the last few weeks. And I still have more things to buy. Jewelry for the wedding, a getaway outfit, make up, hair, tan, manicure and pedicure. Uggh, and all that alcohol for the reception. I wanted to buy another swim suit, but at this point, that's just wishful thinking. I just called AP looking for that expense check they owe me from Hawaii. I could sure use that $178 right about now because my $37.00 checking account balance is just not going to get me through next week.

A cycle of anger.

In my office, we have this cycle of anger theory. If you could chart your anger out on paper, it will follow a circular path and evolve along the way.

(imagine this is a circle shaped chart)

Issue occurs and then you feel....
1. Extreme annoyance.
2. Anger.
3. Disbelief.
4. Indifference.
5. It's just laughable now.

I have several issues right now that are in different stages on this anger cylcle. Let's see if I can sketch them out where they are.

That guy at work: 4
That lady at work: 5
My boyfriend's work (never busy over there until I need him): 1
Wedding crap: 4
My band: straddeling 4 and 5
My mom: 3
That zit on my nose!: 2

As you can see, I'm just beginning the cycle on some of these and close to ending on others. Just getting this out makes me feel a little better, a little like I have it all sorted out in a way.